not_myfirstday: ([flack] Smiling)
It was just past three in the morning and the only reason she knew that was because it couldn't be more than twenty minutes after the last time he shifted in his sleep. It hadn't woken her up, not completely, but just enough that she'd been able to focus on the red numbers of the clock to see it wasn't three just yet.

He wasn't asleep. He hadn't been sleeping since the shooting, and even before that she knew things were on his mind more than usual. He'd lost a member of his team, Danny had been put in a wheelchair, and the shooter hadn't been caught yet. Mac had given him a month off, and Elle felt like it might've been three weeks too long. Don never did well with sitting around, unless it was the half-time show, or maybe waiting for Sports Center to do a replay of some amazing feat of sporting events history. Just waiting though, that was a different story.

Turning over, Elle propped herself up on her elbow, watching him in his state of fake sleeping, "You're allowed to get up. I heard your pager go off." She watched as he shook his head, trying to pretend like he wasn't really curious which call had accidentally gotten routed to him. The pager had sat silent for four weeks, save for one accidental page two weeks ago.

Leaning forward she pressed a kiss to his shoulder, "I know you can't sit around the house with Fred and me all day. You want to head to the scene, go for it. It might just be another DUI anyway. Then you can come back to bed, and pretend to sleep some more."

His arms circled around her, pressing a kiss atop her head, "Nah, I'll be fine. I'm supposed to be on leave."

Raising an eyebrow she smirked, "Yeah, supposed to be." Twisting around a bit she reached for the remote on the bedside table. Turning the small television on, Elle flipped through the channels until she got to the news. Resting her chin atop Don's shoulder she watched, "Stella just walked into the building. I felt you twitch."

Don shrugged it off, pulling her closer, but Elle pulled away. Sitting up next to him she tilted her head at him, "Don, if Mac doesn't need you he'll send you back. Might as well just go. It's gonna eat at you all morning, then you'll be antsy, and Fred will end up spending all day walking in Central Park while you try and avoid downtown. Save the little guy the sleeping all day tomorrow, and just go."

Folding her arms she stared him down, or at least Elle's version of a stare down with one of New York's finest. Don tried for a while, but eventually he caved in, smirking at her before he got up out of bed and started to get ready.

"Badge is-"

"Top drawer, I know you moved it."

Smirking at him she shrugged, "I plead the fifth. It was never meant for the second drawer anyway. On leave, or not."

Hooking it on the waist of his jeans he moved back to the bed, leaning down to place a kiss atop her head, "I'll be back later."

"I know, and I'll be here. In bed. Sleeping until at least until I have to take Fred out."

Laughing Don moved toward the door, crouching down to pet Fred on the head, "Make sure she gets up before ten."

"Hey! He's on my side. Go to work already." Nodding, he turned and headed off to work leaving Elle to the bed, where she'd drift off to sleep, and then eventually just wake up again.
not_myfirstday: ([expressive] Smile: Tempted)
You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense,
this girl you met, she isn't perfect either.
But the question is whether or not
you're perfect for each other. - Good Will Hunting


The summer made the days feel long, and the warmth in the apartment wasn't intolerable but it wasn't quite cool enough to be comforting. It wasn't a heat that surrounded itself around you, and made you feel like you could just lie on the floor and let a small puppy's mouth huff small little pants of breath to the top of your head for a while. Elle kept the lights off, the shades drawn in the bedroom and padded around barefoot with a pair of Don's boxers on over her underwear and a tank top on. She could've cheated and turned the air on, but instead she left the windows open and let the ceiling fans circulate the breeze that would come into the room now and again.

Fred followed her around while she shut the windows, but he eventually settled on the floor in the middle of a patch of sun, panting and apparently enjoying the heat. Pausing in the middle of the room Elle glanced to the puppy, wondering how he could tolerate just taking a nap in the radiating heat of sunlight right through the glass. Pressing the arch of her foot against her calf she tugged at the bottom of her tank top, trying to create a breeze of some sort to her stomach.

"Okay, even I can't just watch you lay in the sun like that, you're going to cook!"

Elle leaned down and scooped the sleeping puppy up off the floor. )
not_myfirstday: ([expressive] Smile: Like a School Girl)
Elle took a deep breath as she sat down on the couch. Pulling her legs up beneath her she settled in before reaching down to pick up the small puppy that was trying it's best to climb up onto the couch with her. Part of her knew that really it wasn't appropriate to start him on bad habits this early, but he was so tiny Elle didn't really see what the harm was.

Maybe he wouldn't even remember it when he was too big to do those things. Of course that would probably mean actually realizing that there needed to be a point where she would stop putting him on the couch with her.

The good thing though, was that it meant she would have company when Don was out working far too late for her to actually feel okay staying awake for him to come home. Normal circumstances she'd have pretended to sleep in the empty bed, waiting for him to try and sneak in without waking her. Now though she had the excuse that "The puppy woke up." and when she was wearing pajamas and her hair wasn't brushed, it looked somewhat believable.

Reaching over to the end table Elle grabbed the stack of mail, sorting through it and watching Fred sniff at the envelopes that she discarded onto the cushions. "Those are bills," Elle stated to the dog, who seemed very unimpressed. With a simple nod she continued flipping through the pile of assorted fliers and leaflets telling her all about how she could save a small village for just a dollar a day. Those got dropped to the floor, and Fred moved to jump after them, but Elle's foot blocked his way quickly, "That is junk mail, and I know what you're thinking Fred -- those look just like the papers that get laid down for you in the kitchen so you don't pee on the rugs. You'd be right, but they're out of their natural environment at the moment. So you can stay right there."

Fred just tilted his head at her, wondering probably how so much could slip out of her mouth so quickly and make so little sense. Elle just continued and pulled the Vogue magazine out of the stack and set the rest of the mail aside. Letting the magazine rest on her stomach she scooped up the bills and put those on the coffee table, then grabbed Fred and set him in her lap. Leaning against the arm of the couch Elle glanced through the pages, watching little puppy teeth try to snap at the air that came from her flipping more than a few of them at a time with her thumb.

Pausing on a two page color spread Elle sighed, "These are Jimmy Choos. Now I know it sounds like Chews, but I'm just warning you, right now, that word is not the same at all. Your name is Fred too. Like how Holly Golightly calls Paul Fred, I wanted to name you Danny, but instead I call you Fred. Still doesn't mean you can chew on my shoes."

Elle pressed her hand down the middle of the seam, making the pages flat against her knee, "See? If you ever, ever see these shoes in here? They are not for chewing. Ever. They are for wearing on my cute feet."

Fred seemed to be either contemplating chewing up the page, or peeing on it. Elle wasn't sure but either way she sighed and set the magazine down and set Fred on the floor. He followed her into the kitchen where she grabbed his leash off the hook and attached it to his collar.

"See? I'm putting the leash on you, so we'll go outside and if you have to go to the bathroom you can do it there," Elle tried to explain to the dog. Mostly she was hoping he'd understand by repetition. It was the fifteenth time she was taking him outside that day, and thankfully he'd actually gone to the bathroom three of those times. Elle just wasn't really sure anymore, and she assumed it was better safe than sorry. Mostly Fred just sniffed around the grass and wagged his tail at anyone that passed by. Elle just waited, watching to see if he was going to do anything she needed to clean up after. Which wasn't the glamorous part of having a cute puppy.

Eventually Fred just sat half on Elle's bare foot and half on the ground. The warm puppy skin of his underside, touching her foot and making her more aware of him there at three in the morning. "You know, if you didn't take fifty naps a day you wouldn't be up this late."

Fred just looked up at her and she shrugged, "It's okay I don't feel like sleeping either."

Stooping down, Elle picked him up and carried him back up to the apartment, "We'll just keep each other company until Don gets home. Then you can pretend to sleep too."
not_myfirstday: ([expressive] Smile: The Right Choice)
[ooc: Sam is [livejournal.com profile] thentheres_me and is mine and abused as such. Don is [livejournal.com profile] det_don_flack he's just mentioned, but I still was very nice to him]

The streets were a bit busier now that the weather had begun to warm up. A casual cross breeze would catch the ends of her hair as she pulled at a strand across her face tucking it behind her ear. She smiled at the gentleman that held the door open for her as she moved into the store, keeping to herself as she wandered down the aisles. Most times she didn't even need to get anything, but it was the fact that she could go out, that there wasn't much worry as to what was going on. There was a twinge of guilt that settled in the back of her mind, but she often found it easier to push it back rather than focus on it.

The woman had caught her eye earlier when she crossed at the end of the aisle Elle had been in, but she hadn't been able to place her. Of all the people she'd run across in life, as well as in files, Elle was never sure who was actually safe to approach. Walking up to the wrong person would put her at risk along with Don and everything he worried about would be that much closer to coming to pass. The second time the woman smiled at her apologetically while she waited for Elle to walk in front of her. The smile was more than familiar, it gave her a sign that she was an unfamiliar face, Elle was unknown to the woman. Part of her could've thought that it was a good thing, but she couldn't help but let that small seed of curiosity place in a bit deeper.

As the woman laughed and shook her head insisting that they stop meeting like this, Elle had to smile as well.

"Sorry, I swear I know you. It must sound a bit odd, but you have a familiar face." Elle knew she sounded a bit odd, and the woman looked amused at least. "It's your smile, I know I've seen it before."

If Elle was honest with the woman she'd also say that her eyes were familiar too, but that was a bit too odd, even for Elle to admit.

"Well I've lived in the city for my whole life? You've probably seen me around?"

Elle contemplated that, but it was more than that it was her smile, and not many complete strangers spotted a smile that easily. Shaking her head she bit on her bottom lip, "I really don't think that's it. I'm Elle, Elle Bishop?" Offering a name Elle thought maybe there would be a connection, that it would all be revealed but the woman had no clue who she was, and the name didn't help at all.

"Sorry Elle, but the name doesn't ring a bell. I'm Sam though, Samantha Flack."

Elle laughed, which startled Sam a bit, her hand going up to excuse her slight outburst. Shaking her head she smirked, "I know where I've seen your smile before. On Don's desk, he has a picture of the two of you from some party?" Elle didn't know the details behind the picture, but she knew it had been on his desk since she'd met him. Don had explained about his family late one night after work one night, and Elle had put the connection of his sister to the picture on his desk. It was the first time she actually realized that she wasn't his girlfriend, and while she was happy then, she wasn't actually going to mention that now.

Samantha looked shocked as well, "You know Don?"

Elle winced slightly, she knew that Don had caught up with her recently and then opted to let her have her space. Elle hadn't asked about her, but knew that Don was at least checking in on her. The realization now was that Don hadn't actually been making his presence known.

"Yeah... I, I actually live with him. It's a long story though," Elle tried to reassure her.

Sam laughed shaking her head, "Yeah I figured it would be. Though good for him, I told him he needed to find a girl."

"Well it didn't exactly start out that way, but... you should stop by. I'm sure he'd like to see you." Elle nodded shifting the bottle of shampoo from one hand to the other. It was the only thing she'd actually thought to pick up.

Laughing Sam shook her head, "Yeah, I'm sure he'd love that."

Elle glanced to her, "You never know? I don't know, he's had a rough few weeks." Elle shrugged, "I think he'd like to see you, I mean the fact that I only recognized you from a picture on his desk? That needs to get fixed."

"Yeah, maybe you're right," Sam paused thinking about it, "Shit! Does he still have the picture of me from Christmas like ten years ago? It was on the wall near the kitchen last I was there."

Thinking about it Elle shrugged, "Maybe? I spend a lot of time there but I haven't actually taken notice of much of his stuff." Sam shook it off dismissing the thought, but now Elle was curious. "You could come by? See for yourself?"

Shrugging Sam glanced to her basket of things, "Yeah, maybe. I should probably finish up. Tell Don I said hi though, yeah?"

Nodding Elle smiled again, "It was good to meet you though, and honestly... think about talking to him. I know he'd like that."

Sam nodded again and smiled waving to Elle as she headed back down the next aisle. Elle exhaled glancing to the bottle of shampoo and turning on heel to go check out. Even though she had just met Don's sister for the first time the only thing she was thinking about was if there was that picture on the wall, and how growing up she knew the only picture on her father's desk had been one of him and a fish.
not_myfirstday: ([emote] Look Down 02)
[note: AU Content with Spoilers for CSI:NY 5x15 "The Party's Over" Flack is borrowed with love and adoration and returned in the same shape I found him]

The news called it 'Blue Fever' but Elle had politely referred to it as 'Don Sleeps In Fever' because she knew he wouldn't actually make it through the day without checking in with the office. He had been torn about the choice, but knew he at least wanted to show his support, knew he wanted to prove that they did have a point. Elle didn't mind at all, since it meant she wasn't woken by the sound of his pager going off or the shift of weight off the bed. This morning was different, starting with a heavy inhale from Don at the back of her neck. It was the sort of sound that made her shrug her shoulders up just to press in closer to him, the sort of sound that made her know how much smaller she was in comparison to him. Closing her eyes made it seem easier to slip into the thought that the world wasn't as horrible as it really was, that she hadn't almost died, that there wasn't odd text messages coming to her phone... calling her to action.

The preference was to stay in bed with Don taking those deep breaths of her. Even though she knew he had been up since four, that those habits were so deep into the way he was, yet he'd stayed at her back just because. He'd get up though, his heavier steps moving through the apartment trying to stay quiet even though she knew he was positive she was awake. Barefoot she padded to the closet seeking out something to wear that was warmer than the thin cotton of her shirt now that she was lacking his body heat. The sole of her foot pressed against her knee as she balanced in the closet glancing at the row of Don's shirts her fingertips brushing across them lightly. Moving from the closet she yanked at the dresser drawer finding a navy henley that was his. It took a fluid movement to tug her shirt off and drop it to the floor, feeling it pool against her foot. The chill in the air was right there against her skin for a moment before she pulled his shirt on over her head. Moving from the bedroom she brushed her hair out of her eyes and yawned as she stretched.

"You know, you keep lookin' better in my shirts I'm not gonna have much else to wear."

"I'm not sure if I have a problem with that," she teased with a playful raise of her eyebrow. "So how long are you staying home for before I lose you to the call of the Blue?"

He smirked back over to her from over the glass of water he was drinking, "What makes you think I'm going in?"

"Because you're you and I caught you looking at your phone earlier when neither of us were actually sleeping in." The smirk played on her features as she narrowed her gaze at him, "You're busted."

He laughed for a moment before moving over toward her as he glanced down to her, "Spending all this time here I might end up with quite a rap sheet, 'specially if all my crimes are up to you."

"I'd let you make bail and release you on your own recognizance. Otherwise around two in the morning I'd be lonely."

"Two in the morning? Early night for me then."

She nodded for a moment before closing the distance from where she had been to where he was standing, "Law of averages, I guessed... maybe I hoped?"

His arms circled around her lightly once she had moved in front of him, "Seriously though, Elle, I'm staying home to show support for the rest of the guys."

With a careful raise of her eyebrow she thought it over for a moment before pressing up on tip toes, "I know you are, which is also why you'll still go in eventually." Leaning in slightly she brushed a kiss across his lips, before pulling back and meeting his eyes, "So that they don't have to."
not_myfirstday: ([expressive] Moment you Notice)
[ooc: AU Content with spoiler from current season of Heroes and CSI:NY 5x14 "She's Not There". Flack is [livejournal.com profile] det_don_flack and is not binding on any other canon muses from either series.

Elle was never really sure when he slept some nights, and she knew that more recently his sleep hadn't been the easiest. Now as the alarm went off she turned over to feel against his pillow glad that she wasn't grabbing at his mouth, but unsure of where he was. Sitting up in bed her hand ran over her features allowing her sight to adjust a bit. Flack wandered into the bedroom fastening the links on the cuffs of his shirt.

"Ooh, your favorite suit. Looks sharp with the hair cut Detective."

He smirked at her and she had to return the smile as well. Tugging at the blankets she wanted to settle back into bed and go back to sleep but he gave her a look that she knew meant he had either an opinion or something to say, which in general were the same thing.

"What?" Homeland Security had taken the case away and it had been a few days since the text message and nothing had happened.

"Come with me to the station today."

The look of confusion on her features was met with a look of seriousness on his.

"Just.. don't look at me like that. I know it's been a few days, but just... for me. Come on. Hang out at my desk and just.. I'll feel better if you do alright?"

Taking in a breath for a moment she nodded, "So what is this? Take your Elle to work day?"

"Something like that."

***


Elle was used to sitting around while other people did all the important stuff. It wasn't the building in Hartsdale, but it was still a building full of people that were doing the right thing for the city. Of course the difference was that this actually was the right thing, and it wasn't just someones beliefs that it could be right. The one good thing was that Flack's desk had a chair that swiveled and most of the guys in the precinct were really nice to her. It was odd, mostly because she'd been there before. Not in the actual building, but in the parking lot out front. Bennet had to claim a few people... a few times. He'd give them the whole routine, flash some credential and then he'd be back out to the van with the one that got away. Now Elle was inside the building, and it looked... boring.

What probably wasn't boring was whatever Flack was doing. He was off with someone from the crime lab, who Elle recognized in name, but not in his face. It wasn't like it actually mattered, but she knew that he was close to all of the people he worked with. Elle had only worked with Bennet really... and she figured he was out there somewhere keeping his Claire Bear safe.

"Save the dumb cheerleader Bennet..." Elle muttered under her breath as she let her feet swivel the chair a bit side to side. She should've brought a book.

***


Elle pouted over at him, "That was your favorite suit. Now it smells like the fish market."

"Cause I fell into a fish stand."

Hanging it up on the hanger she tilted her head at him as he changed. It wasn't that she didn't see him, and not even that she didn't see him like this, but it was different still. He was on edge, rattled even and it worried her. "Hey..." Elle kept her voice low as she moved toward him in the locker room. Her hands settled on his shoulders for a moment before she leaned against him. She knew he could feel the static on her and that he knew what it was, understood that it wasn't just an oddity. Shutting her eyes she let her breathing soften to match the rise of his chest as his hand covered over hers on his chest. Smirking she kissed his back then laughed as her forehead pressed to him, "You still smell like fish. I'll take your suit to the cleaners, and I'll come back. I promise. I'm going stir crazy."

***


It bothered her to sit in the room with the man trying to describe a woman that had helped take his daughter. Shifting in her chair Elle tucked her hair behind her ear, wishing that Flack had asked someone to take a patrol car and take her home. He knew it was going to be a late night, and he'd told her just that. Sitting there waiting for them to come back though was making her anxious. Hearing the man talk about his daughter.. the way he was so concerned, so worried about her. Exhaling Elle took a strand of her hair winding it around her finger in a nervous manner. There wasn't a single position on the wooden bench she'd opted to sit in that was comfortable. Every time the door to the station opened she saw the man flinch in reaction, expecting someone to call his name. Elle glanced every few times hoping to see a pair of blue eyes coming to claim her.

Always willing to stay out of the way Elle had barely managed to see him in the few times he'd been in the station after the fish incident. Whatever he was working on was taking a lot of time and energy and she'd seen people milling through the rooms at a higher frequency. She was good at determining patterns, and noticing who was leaving and not coming back. Her fingers itched at her nose before she started to chew on her bottom lip. The minute hand on the clock seemed to tick away at an uneven pace as she curled up against her jacket folded in half pressed to the wall.

The girl came through the door and Elle saw the way she looked at the man that had been worried about his daughter. Her foot shifted against the floor as the man stood up and with a look forgave anything the girl had done. Elle had never seen that look, not from her father at least. Her eyes cast toward the door to see Flack, and he looked relieved. This was another look she didn't ever see from him. When he was done with the case, he'd have the drive home, the drive to the bar even to steel over what had brushed too close to him. Standing up her hand moved to hold her jacket so that it settled on the bench instead of the floor. Moving through the rest of the officers she found her way to stand before him. Looking into his eyes she saw the fear, the worry that weighted on his shoulders, and she knew... she understood that it wasn't just this case.

There wasn't anything he needed to say as his arm reached for her and pulled her close to him. Shutting her eyes she leaned against him, feeling his hand cradle to the back of her head. It wasn't a matter of needing contact, or wanting to be held by him. As his other arm wound across her back she felt so much smaller in his arms, and it didn't matter because she felt safe. Sitting in a police station with officers all around her she felt on edge, but there half in the outer hall entrance and having people brush against her casually she knew nothing would happen because he was there. His mouth pressed to the top of her head gently as his words murmured into her hair, "Come on I'll take you home."

Elle nodded against his chest agreeing with him, because she believed him. She agreed with him because when he accepted the truth, when he found out who she was and didn't cast her out... he became her home.
not_myfirstday: ([expressive] Aches to Breathe)
[response to this and not binding on any other muses from either show.]

The text message didn't even make any sense to her. For a moment Elle even considered the thought that it was just a wrong number. Her fingers pressed to the keys replying that it was a wrong number, but the reply nearly made her drop the phone to the ground. Instead she sat there on the floor of Flack's apartment leaned against the couch. Staring at the display didn't do much of anything except remind her to press the side of it to light it up every time it dimmed.

THEY THINK YOU ARE DEAD.

It wasn't anything anyone could've mistaken for a wrong phone number. Elle barely even noticed her hands were shaking slightly until the phone finally slipped free from her grip and landed on the floor. The dull sound of it hitting the carpet had snapped her out of her slight daze as the sound of Don's keys in the door came through. Glancing to the clock she realized how late it actually was. He'd been working longer hours since Tracy had disappeared and Elle knew why she was gone. She didn't realize how many others were missing. It wasn't as if anyone would've thought to call her anyway. They thought she was dead, but this person, this unknown number knew that she was very much alive. They knew it and they knew how to reach her.

The sound of his keys skittering across the counter pushed her to her feet and into the kitchen where she knew he was. It wasn't too late that she'd been in bed, though sleep at this point wasn't going to come easy. The water came out of the tap and into a glass and she caught sight of the one handed tug he did to loosen his tie. Exhaling softly she moved over toward him placing herself in his way for a moment as she loosened his tie the rest of the way and slipped it from his neck. Folding it up she moved across the kitchen and set it on the counter before turning toward him.

Elle's foot rocked a bit behind her other, tilting her posture slightly with a lean that probably looked as uncomfortable as the phrase she was about to say was going to be. Wringing her fingers together she let her breathing steady as her thumb brushed over the top of her hand. The look she got from him in return was one of concern and worry and before he even opened his mouth to say anything she let it out.

"I'm supposed to be dead."

Don set the glass down on the counter and gave her a look, "Dead? Sorry... how's that?"

Taking in a deep breath she started out slow. Explaining about the night Sylar attacked her and then left her on the beach. How when he'd picked her up from the hospital in Jersey that it had been because of that. She wanted to know what he was thinking, what was going through his mind, because all she kept thinking about was how she had been lying to him all this time. The story continued showing him the text message she got, how someone out there wanted her to know that there was still hope. Explaining to him that if they found out, she'd be taken too. Her eyes dropped to the floor for a moment staring at her toes as they flexed forward and backward on the tile in the kitchen.

"I don't get it Elle, why would anyone want you dead? Why would they be takin' people off the streets, out of their homes? What do you know about these people that I don't?"

"I know that they're all like me..." Elle let her voice drop off as her hand lifted up despite her eyes still cast to the ground. The crackle of blue lit up in her hand as the energy coiled around her fingers for a moment before she let it die out.
not_myfirstday: ([emote] Breathy Sparks)
The weight of her head against the pillow would often make her arm fall asleep. She'd slip it against the cool of the sheets to let her palm press to the underside of it and just watch the way his chest rose and fall. He'd shift in the middle of the night away from her ever so slightly, and it wasn't as if she actually minded. There had always been that space between them, that air of tension that neither actually felt like admitting to. Instead they fell into something familiar, something both of them could understand without having to label it as anything at all. He had his job, early mornings filled with text messages making his phone vibrate on the dresser. Even if she had been able to sleep through it she'd still hear the clink of metal to metal as he slipped his cuffs to his belt and the click as he double checked the safety on his sidearm.

Now though it was still night, and it was still that part where she could just wait for her arm to fall asleep. Still at his back, just watching how his body moved when he breathed. How his shoulder could roll backward slightly, almost looking for a touchstone of her presence at his side. The hand that lay at her hip lifted up easily, not burdened by a lack of circulation and pressed gingerly to his back. Easing that motion of unrest with a soft touch that had a heat all of her own to it. She wanted to tell him, to let him know what she could do, but with him she wasn't that person. She wasn't her father's daughter... or someone dangerous.

Her name was out there, but it was just assumed that someone had taken her ability, and she was fine with that theory. Let the mobs come for whoever else could be found, but she wanted to just be left alone. She wanted to lay at his back and reassure him with her touch that she was there, and that in the morning when he woke up to face the streets filled with people trying to hide who they were, trying to survive while they were hunted down for something they couldn't control... that she would still be there when he got back.

That if anything was possible, if she could survive everything she had... that she could be there for him. She could smile at the comments of how she smelled like it had just rained, and that he could've sworn she got a new cell phone more times than he cared to count. That the air was always too dry in his place, because she'd always catch him with a tiny bit of static when he kissed her was just a common thought. If she could hide all of that from him, and still be at his side when he woke up, she'd make sure she'd be there when he fell asleep as well.

If anything just to watch how his chest rose and fell when he slept.
not_myfirstday: ([expressive] Aches to Breathe)
Calling Flack felt like second nature to her, and yet part of her felt bad that it had gotten to that point. He had told her that she could call if she needed anything, but she hated that everytime she called it was because she was in a slight mess. Monday she managed to get herself to the hospital and now here it was Friday and she was getting ready to check out. Everything hurt though, and the physical pain was barely anything to match the emotional anguish she held in her heart.

The mistakes she'd made were in her past and trying to move past all of that hadn't been easy, but Gabriel had told her that it wasn't her fault. That she couldn't blame herself for following orders, but then everything got twisted around and the wound in her thigh was secondary to the pressure on her wrists and the fear flickering in her eyes.

Elle didn't understand why he stopped... she hadn't stopped him, whatever he'd done to her... whatever got fixed inside of her made her energy levels stay what they always were and it was just pain. It was a wonder she even made it to the streets from the beach, and the rest of the night had been a blur of trying to find her way to somewhere safe. The blood on her leg, across her forehead... she knew the way she looked wasn't good at all and eventually she ended up in a hospital. The actual details not even mattering anymore because it was done, and nothing was going to change.

Her hand brushed fingertips lightly to the bandages against her wound, the numbness at her side wearing off as she signed herself out. It wasn't as if she had anyone else to claim her anymore. Her father was gone, her own mother years before that... and being an only child had left her to clear her own path. Looking back though she really wondered just how she'd managed to get so lost.

Glancing at the clock on the wall she was glad that she wouldn't have to be here much longer, Flack was going to come get her and she'd go back home. Not that home was any place she wanted to be right now either. Not having a place to belong wasn't exactly right at all, and Elle knew for a fact that the reason it hurt so much was because for a moment she had a place and there was nothing wrong at all, but now everything was lost and she was stuck in the middle of it all.

Her name jotted down on the pages beneath her hand as she shoved the prescription for the antibiotics and pain meds into her pocket. Elle wanted to leave the antiseptic smell behind her, and even if she wasn't supposed to walk out of her own free will she didn't really want to try and see if anyone stopped her either. The glass doors slid open and the cold air hit her face quickly, nearly taking the air from her lungs with how cold it felt compared to the hospital. She just knew she didn't want to be in there anymore, and Flack would be there soon anyway.

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September 2011

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